Took LM Swimming Today

Yesterday:

I had the most nasty virus on my computer that completely shut it down so the post I was doing at the time no longer exists. I backed my computer up to as far back as I could by having to restart and press F8 over and over until a screen popped up. I even tried to remove the virus in safe mode but it showed up there too. Really hoping that does not happen again, but if it does instead of taking all day I will know F8. The rest of the day before the nasty "FBI" virus had its ups and downs. It started out great in pottery. I made an autism awareness dome that I had to take home to finish making sure it got of the "hump" mode without cracking(which it did). Hubby picked me up from class and we went to go see Josiah's instructor to pick up a flash drive of under water pictures and videos:

One of my favorite under water pictures

Eyes wide open

His hair loos so red under water

While we were there getting the drive I received one of the best gifts, a gift that can not be wrapped or any monetary value on, and that gift is the knowledge that Josiah has touched his life. That knowing my son has made a difference in someone's life. I have actually been hearing this more and more ever since LM has started swimming. Some people who could not swim and can hardly cross a bridge without an anxiety attack because they are scared of water, were at first terrified to watch Josiah's videos and pictures of him swimming, but their anxiety has now died down when watching him. It is not my doing in anyway that my family touch the lives of others.  It is only through God that such things are possible.  

I would LOVE to end on a high note like that from yesterday, but need to share how the rest of the day went for LM with no more swimming lessons. First, he did not want to go into the car. Yup, the kid who would act all shy and not want to see, see his instructor while we were there, did not want to go. After that there was a lot of crying and tantrums off and on until he went to bed around 11. He did not want to take a nap, he was climbing on everything. I ended up getting a headache and pain in my lower back by the end of the day. On a more positive side he pointed to a picture of his instructor and tried to say Micheal(his name). Which is the FIRST name, name he has ever tried to say. He says mama, dada, and papa(sister is working on teetee for her), but not much else comes out of his mouth other than go, bye-bye, meow, dog, car, and truck.

Swimming Today:

 I kind of want to cry right now. Really frustrated and should have seen this coming. Josiah was not happy he was swimming with mommy instead of Michael, his instructor. He was screaming and gripping me the whole time. He floated but wanted to kick with both legs and spin around and around. I should have figured this would happen, not swimming is bad because it is different from what he is used to, but swimming with mommy is not cool either because it too is different then what he had before. It is like starting off from a blank slate trying to get him to swim/float with mommy. Well hopefully the more we continue swimming together the more he will get used to it. Really thinking I should have swam with him with his swim instructor the last week and not just the one day. Since even then he got upset that I was in the water with them. Well, I will have to continue to work on him getting used to swimming with me instead. Just makes me really sad that he is so upset instead of happy, smiling like he was when swimming with his instructor. I will just keep on trying until I see that smile on his face again because I know it is in there. Somewhere it just has to be. This would be the first time that we found something that he really really LOVED and we started to go to it on a regular bases, then had to stop doing it. I am in a whole new world with this, but that is life new experiences or situations where you do not know how to take the next step. Just trusting in God that it will happen. If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it. I trust that he will be happy again with swimming again and that he can be happy with swimming with me.

*videos from with his instructor, the second to last day, he was not happy mommy dropped him in the pool, so no happy floater like he normally is*